Always Missing You, Mother / Linda Shupe-Walden (daughter)
I have almost 58 years of memories of my Mom.. Some funny, many fond or pleasant and some that I’d rather forget because I knew I had disappointed or hurt her. But even those memories are actually good ones for me, because Mom was never judgmental or critical she never kept score.. Rather she picked me up brushed me off and helped me back up on the horse while encouraging, no demanding that I keep trying.. She always expected us to be better, try a little harder and was confident that we could always rise to the level of her expectations… But she always loved us all unconditionally warts and all. Mom was a typical “Mother Bear” protecting and always watching over her cubs. Mom enjoyed family vacations special celebrations family reunions and holiday gatherings. Mom was the best cook on the eastern shore.. More personally she helped me raise my children; she was broken hearted when we suddenly lost my daughter Dawn in a 1989 auto accident. Mom really got a double whammy; she was completely devastated over Dawn and worried about her own daughter too.. I really don’t remember how we actually made it through that difficult time.. During her life she faced the loss of her Father and Mother as well her husband our Dad.. Then she lost 4 of her beloved brothers she also had to face the loss of a child, her son & our brother Dave and then 2 more of her beloved grandchildren were to follow after Dawn; Little David (2004) and my other daughter Laurie … Again we somehow weathered life’s storms… Mom stayed at my side every step of the way throughout every major loss steadfast in her love, concern, support, encouragement & guidance.. Somehow together we made it to the other side of the grief.. Mom surely had her battle scars but she never lost her will to move forward and drag us along with her, sometimes with us kicking and screaming.. It is most comforting to me imagining her crossing over to the other side into the arms of the Lord, our brother Dave, our Dad, her grandchildren as well as all of her family friends and loved ones that went ahead. She is my Mom my friend my buddy my partner in crime and my confidant I simply cannot imagine tomorrow without her here in it. It’s only been a few short weeks and I find myself frequently picking up the phone to call her. My life shall never never be the same. Thank you Mom for being one of the best Mother's on this earth, and being MY Mother. I shall miss you forever. You've left a hole in my heart that shall never ever heal. I love you so much. Until we are reunited.
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